pretty pointless

andrew wants me to move in now, and hes moving out to like norwood, or quincy, or weymouth. i live in marshfield, an hour away from all of those places.

i need a better job, but now i don’t know where to look for a better job, i don’t know where i should go to school, where im close enough to commute.

fuck. fuck. fuck.

and all my parents and sisters say are ‘your growing up too fast, you can’t do it.”

no. im the only one of your daughters, that is actually growing up.

which scares the living shit out of me. and not for the reasons, anyone reading this will probably think of.

well, let me explain my weekend.

sunday night, andrew was completely furious with me still, and at work, of course, i had a complete panic attack, i was so upset i had to leave work. not because of andrew, but because of many health issues that i have had to deal with lately. my mom sent her friend over to my place, and we figured it out, and then andrew drove up to spend the night with me to make sure i was okay. the next morning we drove to the cape. we had such a great time. my sister one night blew up my phone, blew up andrews phone, causing so much drama in my family. well, for me that is. then the next morning i call my mom, she tells me not to call anymore. my sisters blow me off.

and i just feel tention building between my sisters and andrew.

this happened with my mom and her family.

i am truly my mothers daughter, but i refuse to have history repeat itself.